18 days until my due date and I just have to say that I'm completely over being pregnant! I want to feel like a normal person again, I want to feel like I can take care of myself. I don't need special treatment from everyone, all the time. Friends, and even strangers are always letting me cut them in line, offering to carry things for me or help me with anything they can think of; and at home, I often need help doing the smallest tasks. Adam ties my shoes for me because I can't bend over, he pushes me up or lifts me off the couch or out of bed. He lifts and carries anything and everything and when we go to the store, his arms are full of just about all that we are buying, (we never seem to think we need a cart) even if that means he almost drops it all!
Don't get me wrong, I have definitely appreciated all the love and kindness that I have received over the past 8 months, and I absolutely realize that this is the last time in my life where I will be getting this much attention because as soon as that baby makes an appearance, she will take center stage. But, I am SO okay with that! I just want to have someone else to focus my attention on and take care of, rather than feeling sorry for myself when I feel helpless, in pain, exhausted... you name it! I have waited my entire life for my OWN baby. I love children and have always enjoyed babysitting and playing with other people's kids, but I am tired of giving them back! I want to have my own. I want one that comes home with me and my husband everyday. I want to be the one that they want when they are sad, I want to be the mom! So fortunately for me, our baby will be here in a few weeks, and knowing that is the only thing getting me through this last bump in the road.
Now that I'm not working anymore, (which makes time go by a lot slower in case you were wondering...) I have had the time to clean and reorganize our little studio apartment to fit a baby, and all that comes along with one! Everyone talks about how in the last month of your pregnancy you experience "nesting". As tired and unmotivated as I have been feeling, I was afraid that instinct wouldn't kick in for me and that the baby would come home from the hospital to a place that is not ready for her. However, what I found is that after getting home from a long weekend out of town and unpacking the insane amount of gifts that we received at my family baby shower, our entire house was completely filled with baby stuff. That was all I needed for the excitement to kick in and to realize that this is all very real and we really are having a baby who will be here very soon, and I better get my butt in gear! With clothes to wash and organize, a bed to set up, blankets and toys, bottles and pacifiers and so much more to put away, I had my work cut out for me! 10 hours of motivation was all I needed, and Adam came home from work to a completely new house that looks like its ready for a baby!
Here are a few pictures from our weekend out of town with my family for my birthday and my second baby shower:
As you can see, I received a ridiculous amount of gifts! I have a huge family. My mom has 5 siblings and my dad has 8, which means lots of aunts and cousins attended as well as both grandmas and some close friends. Lot's of "oohing and ahhing" at all the cute clothes, making it so much fun to open every gift. All who attended were extremely generous which made it so easy for Adam and me; we didn't have to buy anything after this shower! (Thank you again to everyone that was a part of it!)
Cute cousins! Brooklyn, Chloe and Allison
Birthday Dinner with my family at Red Robin!
A fun get together at Scott and Lora's with lots of cousins, and they sang happy birthday to me AGAIN!
I had to put this last picture of Chloe on here, just because she is so adorable.
Also, here is the most recent picture of my belly. It's getting extremely big! Everyday it seems to grow so much. I still don't see though, how a whole baby could fit in there... just seems like it would be so cramped!
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With all that being said, I really am grateful for where I am at in life. A happy family, a supportive, loving and hardworking husband, and new innocent life that will surely brighten the lives of all those around her. I have always wanted what that I have now, and sometimes it doesn't seem real. Thank you to everyone for being so gracious throughout my entire pregnancy. I can only hope that in the future I will be able to give back even half the amount of help and love that I have been given during this time.
Thank you for reading! Happy Sunday :)
