The Countdown is on!

18 days until my due date and I just have to say that I'm completely over being pregnant! I want to feel like a normal person again, I want to feel like I can take care of myself. I don't need special treatment from everyone, all the time. Friends, and even strangers are always letting me cut them in line, offering to carry things for me or help me with anything they can think of; and at home, I often need help doing the smallest tasks. Adam ties my shoes for me because I can't bend over, he pushes me up or lifts me off the couch or out of bed. He lifts and carries anything and everything and when we go to the store, his arms are full of just about all that we are buying, (we never seem to think we need a cart) even if that means he almost drops it all!

Don't get me wrong, I have definitely appreciated all the love and kindness that I have received over the past 8 months, and I absolutely realize that this is the last time in my life where I will be getting this much attention because as soon as that baby makes an appearance, she will take center stage. But, I am SO okay with that! I just want to have someone else to focus my attention on and take care of, rather than feeling sorry for myself when I feel helpless, in pain, exhausted... you name it! I have waited my entire life for my OWN baby. I love children and have always enjoyed babysitting and playing with other people's kids, but I am tired of giving them back! I want to have my own. I want one that comes home with me and my husband everyday. I want to be the one that they want when they are sad, I want to be the mom! So fortunately for me, our baby will be here in a few weeks, and knowing that is the only thing getting me through this last bump in the road.

Now that I'm not working anymore, (which makes time go by a lot slower in case you were wondering...) I have had the time to clean and reorganize our little studio apartment to fit a baby, and all that comes along with one! Everyone talks about how in the last month of your pregnancy you experience "nesting". As tired and unmotivated as I have been feeling, I was afraid that instinct wouldn't kick in for me and that the baby would come home from the hospital to a place that is not ready for her. However, what I found is that after getting home from a long weekend out of town and unpacking the insane amount of gifts that we received at my family baby shower, our entire house was completely filled with baby stuff. That was all I needed for the excitement to kick in and to realize that this is all very real and we really are having a baby who will be here very soon, and I better get my butt in gear! With clothes to wash and organize, a bed to set up, blankets and toys, bottles and pacifiers and so much more to put away, I had my work cut out for me! 10 hours of motivation was all I needed, and Adam came home from work to a completely new house that looks like its ready for a baby! 

Here are a few pictures from our weekend out of town with my family for my birthday and my second baby shower:

As you can see, I received a ridiculous amount of gifts! I have a huge family. My mom has 5 siblings and my dad has 8, which means lots of aunts and cousins attended as well as both grandmas and some close friends. Lot's of "oohing and ahhing" at all the cute clothes, making it so much fun to open every gift. All who attended were extremely generous which made it so easy for Adam and me; we didn't have to buy anything after this shower! (Thank you again to everyone that was a part of it!)

 Cute cousins! Brooklyn, Chloe and Allison

 Birthday Dinner with my family at Red Robin!

 A fun get together at Scott and Lora's with lots of cousins, and they sang happy birthday to me AGAIN!

I had to put this last picture of Chloe on here, just because she is so adorable.

Also, here is the most recent picture of my belly. It's getting extremely big! Everyday it seems to grow so much. I still don't see though, how a whole baby could fit in there... just seems like it would be so cramped! 

With all that being said, I really am grateful for where I am at in life. A happy family, a supportive, loving and hardworking husband, and new innocent life that will surely brighten the lives of all those around her. I have always wanted what that I have now, and sometimes it doesn't seem real. Thank you to everyone for being so gracious throughout my entire pregnancy. I can only hope that in the future I will be able to give back even half the amount of help and love that I have been given during this time. 

Thank you for reading! Happy Sunday :)

Maternity Pictures And My New Project!

We decided to get some pictures taken together so that we could look back and remember this beautiful time in our life. We chose Isaac Gautschi as our photographer because not only is he a great friend of ours, but he also took our wedding photos which we absolutely loved! Here are a few of my favorites from the session.

We are approaching 33 weeks, and getting more excited everyday! I sometimes wonder how everyone gets through these nine months without going crazy.. because I'm thinking I'm right on the verge! 

I decided that I need a project to distract me and to take up some time, so I've started to work on a patchwork quilt for the baby. About six years ago I made a quilt for my niece before she was born, and I'm going to try it again! I've only made one before, and that time I had my mom with me every step of the way when I had a question or didn't know what to do. This time I am all by myself, and I am a little scared! 

The picture on the left is the quilt I made for my niece Chloe, and the picture on the right is the beginnings of the quilt I'm working on now. Rather than choosing a color scheme, the quilts are just made up of a bunch of random fabrics. The first one I made was completely recycled fabric from my mom's collection and I loved the way it turned out, so this time I got a few scraps of the same old fabrics from my mom as well as new fabrics that I picked out.

I have already called my mom several times and I haven't even started the sewing part yet! Living on the opposite side of the state as my mother is miserable and I'm beginning to wonder if I can even have success in my quilt without her!  I guess this is just part of growing up?

Sleepover!

My niece Chloe had a sleepover with us this last weekend while my sister was out of town and we had a lot of fun hanging out with her. She is such a fun, happy 

little girl with a HUGE personality! 

31 Weeks and Counting!

It took until just a few weeks ago for me to feel like the outside world really knew I was pregnant. Maybe it was because of the cold weather and always being bundled up that I hid my bump well. Or maybe.. (more likely) people have been wondering, but were too afraid to say anything in case I had just gained some weight! Well I am happy to say this is no longer a problem! In fact, I feel like I can't go anywhere without people wanting to feel my belly, and ask me all sorts of questions. I know that a lot of women's least favorite part about being pregnant is the freedom that everyone feels in touching their stomach. But for me, I really don't mind it at all. In fact I actually kind of love it! As I struggle daily in dealing with the negativity that comes with the body aches and exhaustion that have overcome me lately, I need any and every excuse to be reminded of the goodness that comes with pregnancy. I am completely overjoyed at the idea of being a mother.. but the 9 months that it takes to get there... is really not so fun! Today I decided that for the next two months I am going try my best to take in all the happy moments, because being pregnant truly is a gift and even though it is often extremely difficult, I am lucky to be experiencing it.

Getting closer every day! 

Life As We Know It

Since I was a little girl, I have been absolutely in love with children. At church on Sundays I would walk over to the moms that had babies and ask if I could hold them until church was over. It didn't bother me that I didn't always know these people super well, all that mattered to me was that if I was lucky, I had a little one to hold for an hour, or as long as the baby would let me until it was ready to go back to it's mom. This started when I was probably 8 or 9 and has continued on throughout my life. No matter where I am, if there is a baby in sight you can find me with that baby already in my arms, or trying to coerce the mother into letting me hold her child. A lot of my younger years were spent babysitting on the weekends and spending time with all of my little cousins, because that is where I truly have always found the most joy. There is something so simple and satisfying about holding a baby in your arms and knowing that you are providing them protection and comfort.

Now that I'm older and its my turn to be the mom, I have spent a lot of time thinking about motherhood and how much it changes your life. I am the kind of person who is often lazy, always a little behind schedule and it takes a lot for me to be motivated about something. But when I hold a baby, I feel my entire attitude change and all my worries flow from me. I breathe in their love and sweet innocence and I know that as I take care of them, they are content, and so am I.

I have spent a lot of my life looking around at other people who seem to have all these skills and talents, and wondering when mine would show up. Should I be trying new things all the time and hoping that one of these days I'll actually catch on to something and just love it? Am I not surrounded by the right people? Is something just wrong with me? Maybe I'll find my passion when I have children? Or.. maybe my purpose in life is to simply be a mother and to love these little people with every part of me, knowing that I am their's and they are mine.

I don't think that being a mother will be easy, I can already envision all the sleepless nights and days filled with exhaustion and dirty diapers. I can see myself feeling lucky just to get in a three minute shower. I recognize that there is an entire world of chaos that comes with having children, and to a lot of people it is daunting and completely undesirable. Lots of people say that they want to "live a little" before they have kids. But to me, having children and raising a family IS living. Children bring me peace. I feel the love and compassion that I have to share and I am am ready to give every moment of every day to this child that needs me. 

Nothing in the world feels more right, than for me to be a wife and a mother. I was fortunate to be raised with extremely loving parents with assurance that they loved each other, as well as my siblings and me. I am so lucky to share life with my best friend and to start in this new adventure together, knowing that we will create that same feeling for our children that we both had growing up. Life as we know it will be forever different, and that is the most exciting thought in the world!

3 Months To Go!

Three months from today our little baby girl is due, and everything seems to be on track! She moves around a TON these days, which is so crazy to feel! Adam has even been able to feel and her a lot more and there are times when she is moving so much that we can see the movement all over on my stomach. Although pregnancy has not been easy, it is in those moments where I can feel her and see her, that I know that this is all real and pretty soon we will have a real baby moving around in our arms. I can barely hold in my excitement, my patience is wearing thin, and if only these next three months could just speed up a little... that would be great :)

Baby Bettger is a GIRL!

Since we first found out we were pregnant, we have wanted a girl sooo bad! For me, having lots of younger girl cousins who I have spent loads of time playing with and babysitting, having a little niece who I am very close with, and obviously being a girl myself.. it just feels right. I love playing house and dress up, doing their hair and pretending to be princesses. All that girl stuff. For Adam, he has said that he just pictures getting home from work and a little girl running to him, so excited to see him after being gone all day. We would have been happy to have a boy OR a girl as long as they come out healthy and happy... but for some reason we just couldn't get past the idea that there is a little girl hiding in this belly of mine. And we were right! So now all we have to do is wait.... oh and pick out a name. Because every time we think we have it figured out, we change our minds and have to start from square one! 

Happy Saturday :)